and then there's 5

Name:Foo Li Ann
Age: 17
Gender: Female
Relationship:Friend, Close Friend...and Crush..
Relationship status...? i don't know, she says she's not goin out with anyone but others say she is.. that just means she is... ok... now it begins..

Ok, remember how i kept on continuously mention about the 5 crushes in my life and how i went through each of them.. and remember how i was always saying that i was gonna tell u guys about it.. well, here is the last one... and if i still have more to say, this could might as well be my last one, but who knows for sure...

Foo Li Ann, i mostly don't call her through that name... why? I don't feel comfortable..reason being..i just don't...alright alright, i just don't feel right calling her by her name.. weird right? I know, i don't get it either. So what do i call her? Well, i don't keep track of the names i call her but i do remember some. There's Geena (her name she used during her days playing Ragnarok..her dark days, but she made plenty of friends, so i heard), i call her Girl, Sticks, Legs, Chopstick (not sure she remember this one, it was like a year ago), women, as well as pet names like Love (just started recently due to the influence of the series Lie To Me when the main character calls some people, mostly girls, love), hon, and other normal ones like dude, guy, man, mac... yeah, it's weird, but i don't feel right callin her name..

Now enough about what i call her.. now is the real thing.
I met her durin my second year in Sri Garden. I was awkward around everyone and i still don't trust no one... I still felt like i was the new boy around school. Eventually i befriended with these two cousins and followed one of them to her boyfriend's class every morning b4 school starts.. And there is where it all began. How i met her is still a blur to me. She said that she knows me during our trip to melaka, and i knew her before that trip, but i met her during one of the meetings with Lara's (my "lil' sis" and one of the cousins i befriended during form 1) boyfriend, who is currently one of my friends as well. We started to get to know each other by form 2, when we were both in the same class. Including were my bro, Wai Yu, and an awesome lad my the name of Jason, Jace for short. The Checker Chick days.. the reason behind that name was because of Liann's winged checkered heart design.. it was fun.. Form 2 was the best of my years.. 3 awesome best friends, cool school life.. it felt like the first time i started to live.. it felt right.. that was until..well...the split..

Form 3, all of us we assigned to different classes cept for me and Liann (lucky!). I was sad, but at least i was with someone i know. This was the year i met Amira... fell for her and apparently Liann's best friend... she won't admit it but deep down she really is her best friend.. so starts my heartbreak days and then starts the split.. It was on Jace's birthday and we all planned to go out to watch a movie. It was me, Lara, Wai Yu, Liann, Liyana, Ben (Liyana's bf) and Jace, who came a bit too late cause we didn't have enough seats. So instead of ditching the movie, she let hers go and just wandered off...but followin her were Lara n Wai Yu, who eventually became a couple that day... the group split into two and that was the sign our group...started to split..

Weeks later, something happened... Jace stopped hangin out with us.. I thought it was because he was hangin out with Hanif's group.. but it was more than that.. Apparently there was a slight argument amongst Liann, Wai Yu and Jace... it was some sort of love triangle or sumtin like that... i dunno... i never knew about it till the time we all went to our hiding place. We met Jace there alone and he didn't talk to us...well, to them... i wasn't part of the fight.. Eventually, we all grew apart..

By form 4, it was already clear... we had our own group to hang with.. Jace was with Hanif's group, Wai Yu got his own group as well.. all that was left in Checker Chicks were Liann and myself... eventually we had a fight amongst each other as well and we didn't talk to each other for 3 days or somethin like that...

Now what was the outcome of that fight? Well, it just started with me having a bright idea to look for Liann's house...why? I have no fuckin clue.. So off i was, lookin for Liann's house, but i didn't end up findin it.. But then i lied to liann sayin that i was outside her out but went back cause i was nervous to go inside (i might have left that last part out) which led to the big question...Do i like her..and i did not know how to answer that...but i did..for a long time, i like her...

Everytime i see her, my heart skips a beat, my day seems brighter, i couldn't wait to see her at school everyday.. add any cheesy lines and creepy/stalker quotes.. i was head over heels for her..and that was the problem...which sucks a lot...

I know it all to well.. I'm not a man in her eyes.. no, i'm her friend.. the "friend" that is there for her at certain times and was always hangin out with her.. i wasn't a man in her eyes..i was her "Bud"... it sucked i knew well it was stupid of me to have fallen in love (yes, i said love..or typed more like it) with her in the beginning.. Why? Because she already had eyes for another..

Form 5, group dispersed completely..but even when we are all not together, me and her, still the same class, the good friends.. close friends... i guess who we started hangin out with? HER Crush and his gang... who was that gang? Hanif's gang.. that's right, 3/4 of the Checker Chicks were all on the same group...I thought there was still hope for our group, but no... it never came... Checker Chicks was gone and all we have left were our memories..

Soon after, i started to understand that i shouldn't hang out with her.. i should just leave her alone... but NOOOO, i just have to stay with her. I just hafta... Eventually i couldn't handled it anymore and just let out...through skype..or was it fbchat... but then she knew and in a way, let me down easy.. now you might be thinkin, now that that's done, i could go on with my life with this burden off my chest.. i should have... but i didnt..

To this day, I, Sheikh Muhamad Azriq (OMG! My REAL NAME IS OUT!!) is still in love with Foo Liann, Close Friend and Comrade of the AC trilogy...as well as COD: Modern Warfare and such..

I told you it was complicated love... well, here ya go..
Thanks for being my friend and im sorry that i still have feelings for ya.. I love you as a friend as well as a man to a women... so yeah, I am REALLY SORRRY (no sarcasm added).. I don't like ur boyfriend, i enjoy your company and best of luck to you in National Service.. be safe, don't do anything stupid and always know that i'm still your friend, no matter the outcome....oh and sorry again..

2 in a week, im on a roll~

This one is dedicated to my tanned lost lamb, Lucy Shadows, with her head spinning, trying to make a decision every girl has to go through at least once in her life...

Dear lost lamb,
Believe in what you believe in and never lost faith of it cause your mind tends to absorb any information that might ruin you "fling" and you'll start thinking to the point you couldn't grasp reality...kidding...but seriously, DON'T STOP LISTENING, But DO remember that the decision is YOURS to make and only YOU can make that decision... We, the friends, could only fill your head with thoughts u wouldn't want to hear or things that might complicate your decision... So, once you make that decision, live with the consequences and DEAL WITH IT!

That's all for now my little lamb, don't lose faith, keep your head still always remember, the outcome of your decision is INEVITABLE...

Ginni (part 2) and numbers 2 & 4

SO, continuing from where we left off..
I started liking... how did i know this... well, my heart beats fast when i'm around her, i feel nervous when i'm close to her... and i always have these weird romantic imagination that had something to do with me and her (it's not sex, i can tell you that.. wasn't horny or into any of those things at that time.. the most extreme thing would be kissing, and not the frenchy one).

But bad news struck. Somewhere near the Winter break, my dad told me the news that we were gonna leave Jakarta and move back to M'sia.....
My world instantly went upside down....
I haven't finished my school year yet.... i haven't gotten into middle school yet.... i haven't told Ginni yet....

The next day, i decided to throw a farewell party.. I invited a few friends, Ginni included...
So they all came to my house. Two of my best buds, a korean dude, an indo-mix girl and Ginni... We all played game (i lost to a girl.. she was pretty good), ate some KFC and started to play Make believe.. u kno us kids, imagination and shit... after that, everyone went away and i was left wit me two best friends...

During the Winter break, i stayed at a Hotel till we were ready to go... UNTIL my dad got news that i could stay in Indonesia... TILL I FINISHED 6th grade.... Only a year, but i couldn't careless..

After the winter break, i surprised everyone that i wasn't leaving and... yeah... happy days.... till the "that" day came...

My dad passed away and i immediately went back to m'sia on the day of the funeral.. which was the next day...

SO, that was pretty much the end of Ginni.. i don't know wat happened to her after that day.... i've lost all contact of friends.. cept for one very close friend of mine..

I was schooless for the next 3 months... then i rolled into sri garden... at June... somewhere after their holiday... That's where i met my next crush..

EVERYBODY, please give a warm welcome tooooooo...... Mimi SHAKIRA..RA...Ra...ra...

Yeah well, sue me, i liked the girl.. Now this was love at first sight for me... but quickly ended after, what, 2 to 3 months i think... i was too focus on trying to not get bullied, or just understanding the language..

ok, lets review... my first crush was a girl named Ginni.... a red-head.. american? canadian? well, all i know she was a red-head with freckles and braces.... but i liked her..
the 2nd one would be MIMI SHAKIRA~ she was hot and i fell for her... end of story..

I'll skip the third for now, cause it's a loooong story, so yeah..
The forth however..... WAS MISS MILEY CYRUS~ i mentioned it in my blog a loooooongg time ago... fell for her through tv.... was AWESOME~ but she had a bf who, and i quote, MIGHT BE THE "ONE"... ah well, too bad..
Now, i just feel like i wanna go jamming with her... u kno, guitar to guitar, she sings and play guitar and something like that... maybe one day... might be possible...

well that raps up pretty much most of the crushes... be speaking to yous guys.... NEXT TIME~

1...My first crush~ (Ginni) part 1

Did you ever experience this feeling. It did not come from anywhere at all... It just suddenly SMACK up on your face and then it starts.... love at first sight.. of course, in my situation, it wasn't first sight.. we were in the same class, so yeah.. it wasn't love at first sight.. hells no... IT WAS JUST SOME STUPID ARROW THAT JUST SO HAPPEN TO HIT ME BY THE EFFING HEART!!! How did this happen, you ask (whoever you are), well, let me start it at a new paragraph..

How bout i start with the cliche, "It was the summer of bla bla bla bla...."...... NAH! i'll start it the way i've always had... MY WAY!!

K, here's how it happen...

But before the story starts (I know you guys are thinking, "WTF man! JUST START IT ALREADY), i just want you guys to know that this story will be sad in a pathetic state and anti-climatic.... so yeah..

NOW the story begins.

Now, Ginni and I were never close to each other.. AT ALL, hells, i didn't even know her name before... EVEN THOUGH WE WERE CLASSMATES!! i didn't really paid much attention.. cause you know boys... girls are gross, violence is awesome.... superman and batman are both wearing underwear outside their suits.... yeah, i was a kid.... and this thing happened when i was 11... so yeah.. this is how it goes. My 5th grade Teacher, Mr. Ben, a buff aussie teacher who is my homeroom teacher, told us to make a story on our own. So, to gives us some tips, he asked some of the seniors from the high-school section of our school (Primary and Secondary were in different sections, so yeah) to show us some examples of a story. We were divided by two ppl with two seniors. Each senior has a story, so each student were selected randomly for the seniors. You know wat that means... you've guessed it, Ginni and I were both assigned to two seniors together.

It didn't happen right away, like i mentioned earlier. I know Ginni cause she was my classmate.. that was pretty much it. I don't know her. No b'day (not that i rmbr), no horoscope or sum shit.. just classmates is all... i still don't know her even now, and i will tell you why after this part...

Continuing on, Ginni and i were both assigned to these two senior. One was a slightly fat dude and the other was a girl... don't rmbr much on the appearance though. So, we said hi, talk about being a kid, then they started with their story. Mind you, my memory of that day was a bit foggy due to the point that it was a long time ago and i wasn't known for having a great memory.. of stuff... Continuing on, the girl told us her story. I think it was about the first day of school or sum shit. About how she was all nervous like and how at the end, she finally got used to the changes in life. After she was done, it was the fat dude's turn. At first, he didn't seem like the type to talk about love, but he did talked about it. He showed pictures of his character and his best friend, all friendly like until one day, his character fell for her. At first, the friend rejected him, cause she was afraid. Afraid that their relationship as friends would be ruin and stuff. But the story progress on, they both got closer, then he ended with the typical, children fairytale ending "They lived happily ever after".... I didn't notice it at first, but when the story ended, i was looking at Ginni... that was the moment i fell in love for her.... for the first time in my life....

WHOA!!!! HOLYMILF!!! THAT WAS LONG~ AND ONLY PART 1!!! ahahhhaahahhah, i talk a lot.. well, this was the first part of the story, the other part i will write another time. keep watch friends!

1,2,3,4....5?

Everyone has someone they had a crush on. Whether it's your childhood friend.. ur friend's sister... some girl at school.. OR A FUCKIN CELEBRITY!!! but that does not erase the fact that that person is the one that makes ur heart BEAT like a speed-metal drummer, with each thump earning to be closer to the person.. Crushes hurt, that's why they call it a CRUSH!!!! GET IT! HAHAHA..... lame.... yeah, crushes hurt, and through out my whole life... there have been 4 girls that made my heart yearn to be close to them.... to be around them... and i will talk about them.... IN ANOTHER POST!! HAAHAAHAAAHAAHHA!!! You thought i would say it NOW!!! well, was planning to... BUT! I feel like this way is a lot more fun... SO STAY TUNE FOLKS! This random idiot will post it depending on his mode... oh and he will can post it best when he's in a bad mode....... LIKE SHIT MODE~

SAYOZZZ B's!!